I disappointed myself. Once again.
I hate breaking my promise, yet that seemed to be the only option I had at hand. Things went unrailed and I really did not expect Chem to be so surprisingly off my interest. Sigh, or is it just because I change my mind too fast?
Anyways, I feel so ashamed as those promising words are still loud and clear in my mind. Yet they have become lies now. It’s really frightening to come to realize that I am not as determined and resilient as I used to be. Laziness is a crime. Oh no, yangfan you need to save yourself. You need to stand up from where you fell down, once again.
