I still remember back in the late November last year, we
were sitting at a corner in the Library, face to face, and you said, “If
someone was to go for IOI, it must be you.” It was that time I realized how
much trust and faith you had in me. And I remember it was there and then, I
told you in the coming 2010, I would only have two main agendas, one is A-Level,
and second is programming training. At that point of time, my heart was as
triumphant as the bright sunshine outside.
But today, five months after that sunny cozy afternoon, all
I managed to utter in front of you is merely sorry and thanks. It’s not easy
for me to press the Send button, early in the Monday morning, in the same
library. I hesitated, pondered how I got myself into breaking my own words, yet
failed to find any valid reasons. Maybe it’s too irresponsible to defend for
myself that I was just too naive to believe I would be able to cope. But I know
that I would no longer be able to fully concentrate on the training courses,
given that I did extremely badly for my GP and Physics in BT1, and BT 2 is marching
its way towards me, menacingly.
I need my straight As. And I am slowly cutting all the activities
one by one. My limited time and energy only permits me to fight a good battle
in a smaller field. Since I cannot handle all my commitments with ease and I
cannot guarantee success, it may be more realistic for me to stop now, before I
steal more time from my studies to pursue my interest. I cannot run away from
the A-Levels. But fortunately I can pick up programming again in University
later.
Yes, I said no. And I am becoming clearer and clearer of
what I am doing. The new CSC council will be released tomorrow, marking the end
of my first time serving as a President. The Masquerade was successfully held
last Saturday night and my job as the Treasurer was more or less completed. The
JCSC recruitment will be done in May so I expect to step down then. Network
Election will be held in Term 3 and I guess the workload should be manageable. The
2 CSC these would be completed by late May and the very first HCI CSC Forum
will be held then. There are H3 test 2 in April and exam in early June to take,
terrifying me with tremendous stress. Yea, I am glad that I can breathe freely
again when the lovely June arrives.
There are Hwa Chong people who are much busier than me and I
really wonder how they cope. This is really an amazing place with amazing
people. Anyways, I met Peng Hui at dinner just now and she actually holds the
same opinion as me and is doing the same thing – cutting activities. Lol, I
guess I am just one of the normal people who decide to choose an easier life. I
don’t need to be always correct but I just need to identify a path that seems
most suitable for my ability and personality. Hopefully when I look back in the
future I won’t regret today’s decision.
I don’t know why my tone suddenly becomes so optimistic and
cheering again. I am supposed to reflect on my decision and express my sorrow
over withdrawing from APIO and IOI training. It must be Peng Hui’s fault. She
shouldn’t have made me so happy. =P Anyways, I feel much honored to have Dan as
a friend and I enjoyed my NOI journey with the Hwa Chong team very much. Yup, I
shall say bye to programming for now. But I am quite sure I will not miss it
long. Who can resist the fun and the sense of achievement when your solution
gets AC?
