Yangfan, does what you are doing worth your time? What is the meaning behind it?
I am helping the teachers. I am not wasting my time. It may not improve my skills. But it definitely trains my character. I learn to stay humble. I need to strongly believe that I am not stuck here. The value of me as a person is not defined by the nature of my work. My attidute and the outcome of my work are more important.
My aim here is to get a scholarship. I want to get any scholarship to go overseas. I have worked so hard for the past four years. I cannot give up now. This small obstacle is nothing. I still have the evenings to myself. I can study at night. I can get prepared for the interviews slowly. I have more motivation to work here than at home.
This is the first time I taste doing what I do not like. Now, I can still afford to choose to give the job up at any time. But in the future, when I am financially independent, I will have to take full responsibility of my actions. My parents do not have the duty to pay for my wrong choice of job.
I must make this the last time doing what I do not like. I must work hard in my university to find out what I really love. And then, I will let my passion lead me. I will be the lucky person who get paid to do what I like. Bearing this thought in mind, I should be cautious when choosing scholarships to apply for. I shall make the most informed decision.
I promise. Let’s wait and see.
