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An informal movie review of Titanic

Posted on 2007-06-20   |   In Uncategorized   |  

If you are here, please read. I wrote it by heart.

Infinite love

Rose, you’re the most amazing, wonderful girl, woman that I’ve ever met.

Jack, I’m engaged.

Wait, just let me try and get this out. Rose you’re wonderful… I’m not an idiot. I know how the world works. I have ten bucks in my pocket and nothing to offer you, and I know that. They’ve got you trapped Rose and if you don’t break free you’re going to die. Then that fire that I love so about you, that fire’s going to burn out.

It’s not up to you to save me Jack.

I know, only you can do that.

Love is pureness, selflessness, and trust, regardless of time.

Jack, the last six hours with you was the most glorious time I have ever lived. It was so splendid that I had to spend the rest of my life to recover my peace of mind. Jack, could you sing beside my ears again, just like the last dusk, in the orangey twilight that we saw together, at the time which you whispered, “Now, open your eyes.” You made me see my paradise.

Would the vessel never sink, the stories never end, the love ones never leave, and the happy times never go.

So this is the ship they say is unsinkable.

It is unsinkable. God himself couldn’t sink this ship.

At the moment I climbed out of the lifeboat in midair, I was ready to die with you.

But you were gone, leaving me behind.

I saw my life as if I had already lived it. An endless parade of parties and polo matches. Always the same narrow people, the same mindless chatter. I felt like I was standing at a great precipice, with no one to pull me back, no one who cared… or even noticed.

It was you who stood by my side and pulled me up from the darkness. Then I knew that I was not alone any more.

Jack, why everything was as fleeting as fireworks?

I was lost. I needed you.

Listened, the wind was blowing. I touched your face and made my promise, “When the ship docks, I am getting off with you.” I never forgot.

The Heart of the Ocean never vanished, as our love never died.

Jack, I was flying, because of you.

One more piece of Homework. Hoho!!

Posted on 2007-06-19   |   In Uncategorized   |  

“I have learned that success is to be measured not so much by the position that one has reached in life as by the obstacles which he has overcome while trying to succeed.”

–Booker T Washington

What is your opinion on the idea that struggle is a more important measure of success than accomplishment? Plan and write an essay in which you develop your point of view on this issue. Support your position with reasoning and examples taken from your reading, studies, experience or observations. (not more than 500 words)



There are two children taking a short run for competition. One child reaches the finishing line first and wins while the other child falls down halfway but gets up at once and still finishes running at last. Can we simple judge that the first child is more successful than the other one just because he runs faster and wins the competition? I do not think so. In my opinion, struggle is a more important measure of success than accomplishment.

Firstly, everybody’s aptitude is different. There are no two people exactly the same in the world. People that strive for the same target in the same situation during the same period of time may possible get different achievement at the end. Whether a person gets the opportunity and uses an appropriate method to do certain things will also influence his result. For example, if the second child in the story is limped, he is also regarded as successful since he completes the running without abasing himself because of the objective weakness. Thus, to judge whether a person is successful should not only look at his accomplishment but also need to consider this person’s ability and how much effort he has made to try to reach success.

Secondly, a loser is the one that gives up halfway but not the one that insists till the end. Struggling is honorable. It represents courage, determination and stamina. A person that is willing to strive for overcoming obstacles while trying to succeed and not afraid of difficulties and tiredness will not be a loser. The spirit of this kind of people is respectable. He will obtain experiences and learn a lot in struggling. It is possible for him to succeed and get what he wants in the end. For instance, Deng Xiaoping was one of the most important leaders in China. He was defeated and impeached by Chairman Mao or other leaders for three times. However, he became the chairman of China in his later life and his wisely open policy led China to a bright future. Thanks to him, people in China could live a better life. Let us put ourselves in his shoes, if he got disappointed in the impeachments and gave up thinking about the generation’s life and the future of the country, he would never achieve this reputable position as today. Hence we can see that struggling can help a person to succeed and it is also an important measure of success.

In conclusion, struggle is a more important measure of success than accomplishment. We should never disappoint ourselves because of the failure. On the other hand, we should regard struggle as the step stone that leads us to the door of success.

(452 words)

沏茶小记

Posted on 2007-06-19   |   In Uncategorized   |  

从家里带回一小包绞股蓝,于是便喜欢上它的清香。将昨夜的杯中残茶洗净,烫去余香,洒上三两点干茶,注进热水,看那些小团小团的枯枝缓缓上升到水面,熨开来,散成叶子,再缓缓下沉。茶水渐渐由清变成淡绿,杯口是迷离的白雾,凑上前去,深嗅一口,反倒惹了一室朦胧。

Sleeping...

Posted on 2007-06-19   |   In Uncategorized   |  
Another crazy IH essay. Tons of grammer errors.




Class: 307

Name: Zhang Yang Fan 33

Date: 18-6-07


Answer the following question.


“The Rwandan Genocide was caused by the actions of Hutu extremists.”

Using sources A-F, examine how far the evidence supports this view.


Some of the sources do show that the Rwandan Genocide was caused by the actions of Hutu extremist.

One of the sources clearly shows that Hutu extremist planed the genocide intentionally.

Source F tells us that before the 1994 genocide began, the United Nations peacekeeping department was warned about the impending bloodbath. It was told that “Hutu extremists had drawn up death lists. The slaughter was about to begin.” This shows that the Rwandan Genocide was planed beforehand by the Hutu extremist. They caused it on purpose and wished to kill Tutsis as many as possible. This is supported by my contextual knowledge as Hutu extremists used propaganda to urge Hutus to kill their Tutsi neighbors across the country.

Moreover, Hutu militia members and civil authorities coerced and, in many cases, threatened Hutus to take part in the killing of Tutsis who had been longtime friends or neighbors. This can be seen in source C as the Hutu who saved a Tutsi friend or a colleague in one place, only to go and join the killings in another. This ambivalent story does hint us that the Hutu extremists may play a threatening role to the other Hutus here. According to my contextual knowledge, there were at least 500,000 Tutsis and Hutu moderates killed in the genocide. This shows that the Rwandan Genocide was caused by the actions of Hutu extremists but it was not the general Hutus’ will.
In addition, Hutu extremists convinced people of the correctness of killing Tutsis and they were quite successful in doing so. Source E states that most of the Hutus still do not recognize that what happened to the Tutsis was a crime of enormous proportions. The Hutus viewed the incident as the fault of the Tutsis and the Rwandan Patriotic Front (RPF). They thought that it was right and justifiable to kill the Tutsis. As a result, more and more Hutus participated in the killing and worsen the situation. A point to note is that source E is a view expressed by a journalist and the quotation in the source is said by a Hutu woman so that this argument may not be strong enough as the minority’s view cannot represent the major generation’s view.

Moreover, the Tutsis lived in terror and suffered tortures throughout the genocide. A Tutsi boy who survived the genocide said his family members were terrified in source B. They hid in a poor situation and were afraid of being found and killed by the Hutu militia. When they were rescued by RPF, the boy thought that “these were good people”. From these, we can see that the Hutus were merciless and almost killed every Tutsi in the genocide. According to my contextual knowledge, the killing targeted men, women, and children. Children were traumatized by the torture and killings they witnessed. The genocide did bring incurable pain to the Tutsis. And this was what the Hutu extremists wanted to see.

On the other hand, some sources do show that the Rwandan Genocide was not caused by the actions of Hutu extremist.

The Hutus might not be treated equally to the Tutsis politically. A historian described the colonial rule in Rwanda as Hutu were excluded from higher education and a Tutsi monopoly of public life was imposed even for the next generation. Hence Hutu were related to the laboring masses and hardly escaped. The idea of Hutu were treated as inferior to Tutsis is also reinforced by source E. A Hutu woman said,”We are not doing well because of the Tutsis and the cockroaches of the RPF who want to rule over us”. The Hutus’ unsatisfactory towards Tutsis was showed here. As a result, the genocide was not caused by the Hutu extremists but caused by the unfair treating of the Hutus in daily life.

Furthermore, whether the participation of the RPF is justifiable is still a question. In source D, twenty-seven priests presented their protesting view against RPF in a letter to the Pope. They believed that the genocide was caused by the provocation and harassment of the Rwandese people by the RPF. The number of Hutu civilians killed by the army of the RPF “exceeds by far” the Tutsi victims of the ethnic troubles. This is quite believable as the twenty-seven priests were quite a large number of people and they should be sincere to the Pope so that the point of view could represented the real situation of large proportion. Hence the actions of the Hutu extremists were not the only cause of the genocide.

In addition, it seems that the genocide could be avoided but failed because of the neglect of the world body in source F. The slow reaction of the upper department was also the cause of the genocide otherwise this tragedy might not happen.

Looking at all the sources, I believe that they largely point to the fact that the Rwandan Genocide was caused by the actions of Hutu extremist.

Although sources A, D and F do provide evidence to support the alternative view, they may not be strong enough. For example, source A does point out the unfair treatment of the Hutu but it does not specify the reaction of the Hutu extremists. The details such as reason and specific examples of the provocation and harassment of the RPF were also not provided in source D. Moreover, although the main point in source F is to blame the world body for not succeeding protecting the Rwandan people, it still clearly points out that the genocide was planed intentionally beforehand by the Hutu extremists. This clearly highlights the problems with administrative implementation, and that in reality the Rwandan Genocide was caused by the actions of Hutu extremist.

Thus, it can be seen that the Hutu extremist should take the major responsibility for causing the Rwanda Genocide. The cruelness and mercilessness that represented by their actions and the witness of the survivors should be a powerful testimony.

Back to reality

Posted on 2007-06-17   |   In Uncategorized   |  

我回来了。我好想家。

今晨5点的时候回到房间,越南室友已睡,大灯亮着,窗户紧闭,后来问她的时候才知道是她一个人对着空房间感到害怕。现在我回来了,亦是与她为伴。

大包小包的共四件行李,加起来可能比我还重,连扛带拖运回来,搬掉我半条命。下次再也不敢拿那么多了,我怕了。

16号晚上9点多的时候开始过拱北口岸,拒绝爸妈送到澳门机场,于是匆匆在关口别离,没有拥抱,没有太多的嘱咐,挥一挥手,在转身的时候偷偷拭去大滴落下的泪,隐忍许久。终不是情感外露的人。

一行人的座位在飞机上四散,独自坐窗边,9A,邻座是一位母亲带着孩子,新加坡人。早在候机时就发困,上飞机后坐在位置上呵欠连连。腾空的时候舱内熄灯,窗外正好是轰鸣的螺旋桨,衬着一闪一闪的红色航灯,幕布是沉睡的澳门,灯火点点。我真的又离开了。撑着眼皮在新的日记本扉页上写下开篇,忆起一晃而过的半月,见过的人,做过的事,错过的人,错过的事。一边写一边哭得稀里哗啦,是为别离,亦是为方才向空姐买的矿泉水,3块新币,贵得抽筋。1点多的时候收拾好东西开始睡觉,抱着电脑包当枕头,比石头还硬,半醒半眠。再次醒来已是准备降落,右耳耳鸣疼痛难忍,整个右脸麻痹又如针刺,估计是侧着睡而高空气压又不正常的缘故。不停张嘴喝水,担心耳膜会在落地前被压破,幸而无事,虚惊一场。

走出机场的时候热的气息拂面而来,璐的声音在耳边响起:“还是那么热啊”。是呢,一如我们去年十月初抵的感觉,一样的睡眼惺忪,一样的疲惫,只是当初的兴奋被如今的不舍与难过所替代,到底是不同了呢。

翻出收在衣柜顶层的牙具洗漱,大镜子里是一张无光的脸,双眼略微浮肿,憔如黄花,真是悲哀。坐在床上一边吃最后一个妈妈亲手洗的桃子,一边掏出手机发信息报平安。关灯躺下的时候听着室友滴答滴答的指针走动,告诉自己,我已经不在家了呢,枕头上也没有妈妈的气息了,接下来的日子,我又要靠自己了。

今天很废,哭了一天。吃完晚饭回来看在家里录的东东又伤感得不行,抽涰得仿佛世界无望。幸而亲爱的首都人民来安慰我,带了一盒北京的樱桃,吃得不亦乐乎,又用北京大妈的腔调大讲回家的趣事,我在一旁时哭时笑,终是释怀,不再轻易红了眼睛。

跟爸妈都打了电话,没敢去打扰忙碌的人。下午做完了英语,明天奋斗一天应能完成假期作业。回家的梦终是做完了,无论心里如何想逃避也不得不振作起来面对现实了,接下来的五个月若是能好好学习,或许我往后的日子不会如此悲哀。

上半年因想家而留了一堆烂摊子,如今再没有推托的借口了。答应梁老每天背30个单词,不知能坚持几天。总之心里明白自己是不能再颓下去,否则将被那些辛勤奋斗的人们抛弃了。

那个一起走的梦,应该不是太遥远吧。

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