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博客比赛的作文~~

Posted on 2007-05-24   |   In Uncategorized   |  

浩瀚星际

这片虚拟的浩瀚星空,已经陪我走过六年了。

第一次见到它的时候,是一个夏日的夜里在邻人家中,陌生的界面,生疏的操作,选了最易操作的人族,采矿练兵,不亦乐乎。将它带回家后,暇时便独自摆弄,亦步亦趋,慢慢闯关,也不着急,只为消遣开心。

身为女生,或许是天生胆小,一直到现在都害怕太过激烈的杀戮场面,每次敌人来袭时必将声音除去,以免排山倒海的枪声震得我心慌意乱,人仰马翻。敌人小小的偷袭都足以让我如此胆怯,更勿论运用战术调兵遣将去主动攻击了,再说未探明的地图全被阴影覆盖,谁知那里会有什么妖魔鬼怪将我派出的兵杀掉。有好长一段时间我甚至在想,若是没有敌人的攻击,我安心在自己的小天地里采矿建房,发展成大大的城市,部下各司其职,岂不更有趣味?不必打打杀杀,将辛辛苦苦采集资源而训练出的大批部队送上前线,争个你死我活。血流成河的惨状实让人不忍目睹。更何况天性不擅长玩电脑游戏的我,每次都被敌人轻易攻陷城池,看着自己一砖一瓦建起来的军事基地被毫不留情地摧毁成一片废墟,一兵一卒都被消灭得一干二净,心里的痛就像自己生了个孩子被别人活活掐死一般,那个难受劲儿真是让我恨不得在一气之下将游戏删去,省得再历“丧子之痛”!可是无奈自己满足于建设基地时统帅三军,万人之上的优越感,总是不忍心与它一刀两断。痛定思痛后,决心化悲愤为力量,扭转局面,反弱为强。人说巾帼不让须眉,谁说女人的名字叫做弱者,小女子就要证明给他看,更何况对手仅是区区一台电脑,我这个主人还怕它不成。

或许是游戏出版商早已考虑周全而不忍伤害玩家们的弱小心灵吧,总之秘籍的出现真是天助我也。那是一本比《葵花宝典》或《九阴真经》有用百倍的万能经书,将《孙子兵法》的百战百胜化虚为实,真是“秘籍在手,衣食无忧”啊。至今仍清楚地记得自己常用的两项口令,“show me the money”是获得一万个单位储量的矿石与天然气,“black sheep wall”是显现地图。在秘籍的帮助下,我要风得风,要雨得雨,知己知彼,能不百战百胜吗?

就这样,当年的弱女子终于在极短的时间里练出声势浩大,兵种齐全的队伍,浩浩荡荡地开向敌方基地,将它杀个片甲不留,大报当年“弑子之仇”!我的士兵亦越战越勇,很快我便闯过了人族的全部训练关,接着又开始学用虫族来操作,而神族的各个部门太过复杂,至今我都不太明白,早已放弃。三个种族真有些三国鼎立的气势呢。

上了初中后,遇到了一些志同道合的朋友,都是些精通战术的男生,对星际狂热无比,从他们口中我才知道星际主要是联网玩的,在韩国还有什么星际职业赛,设立正式奖项并颁发数额不小的奖金,那些玩星际玩得出神入化的职业玩家都能媲美战争年代的军事家了。问及秘籍一事,他们都显得很惊讶,而且语气中有不屑意味,说是秘籍是为不会玩的人准备的。我也不怒,反正自己玩得高兴就好,再说了,我是女子我怕谁!听他们说联网游戏中秘籍无效,我也就兴趣缺缺。后来学业压力日益增大,加上家长的限制,那片浩瀚的虚拟星空便离我越来越远,如今想来都已近一年没玩过了。

听闻《星际争霸Ⅱ》近日出炉,与星际Ⅰ相隔十年之久,如今终于千呼万唤使出来。其实在近年间与星际相似的游戏层出不穷,而且更新换代极其快,有的游戏出版商在其游戏的界面设计上下足功夫,成品甚至堪称游戏界的艺术,据我所知《魔兽争霸》的3D版本制作奢华精美,精挑细选得甚至需要一定配置档次的电脑才能运行。不知道星际日后是否也将走上华丽包装的道路,而我只知道自己将无比怀念当年屏幕上那片简陋的闪烁星光。

六年的浩瀚星际之旅,是我梦中永恒的神话。


第一篇小说

Posted on 2007-05-23   |   In Uncategorized   |  


华文课的小小说,破我不写错别字记录的作文。郁闷!

凭记忆写下多年前看过的《热浪》里相似的故事,算是一半的抄袭了。



玫瑰

   中三七 张扬帆 33


我是一朵玫瑰,花店的店员将我的刺拔去,精心修剪了我的茎与叶,然后把我与别的花儿一同插在水里,等待顾客的光临。

我不是一朵普通的玫瑰,我在等待主人的到来,我有预感,他今天会出现,把我带回家。


黄昏的时候我路过街口右拐的第二家花店,习惯性地向里扫了一眼,门口的水桶里插着一枝玫瑰,与其它花儿冗杂在一起,红得像唇上伤口的血,一点一点渗透出来,带给我莫名而久违的熟悉感。转身走进花店,我决定把她带回家。


他的房间很大,是干净的白。身上用以装饰的花纸与蝴蝶结被他拆去,如同被剥去了外衣,无从遁形。他将我插在一个细颈长花瓶中,清凉的水有如他的眼睛一般明净。我知道我很美,从他看我的眼神中可以得到答案。他将我举起,凑近轻嗅我的芬芳,厚重的鼻息让我的花瓣轻颤,带给我无法承受的晕眩之感。下一秒钟他已带上房门离去,我被搁置在一角。一室昏暗,花瓣上残存着他唇边掠过的余温。


那枝玫瑰红得诱人而诡异,犹如一个拥有不可抗拒力量的黑洞,突然出现在我的宇宙。模糊而不祥的第六感让我心生恐惧,厌恶这种无能为力的感觉。只是一朵普通的玫瑰,何以能有如此蛊惑人心的魔力?我想不明白。


他赤脚坐在地板上,眉头紧皱。房间里没有开灯,但我知道他在看我。不知他心里在想些什么,若我可以言语,我必开口询问。窗外大雪纷飞,铺天盖地的银装素裹,映得本是漆黑的天空一片灰白。我分不清这是喧嚣的深夜,还是寂静的黎明。他一直没有再给我加水,干渴之感愈益明显,不知是房里的暖气温度太高,还是他看我的眼神太过灼人。


我在黑暗中看了她一整夜。她隐在夜的影子里,被掩护得只剩下依稀可辨的轮廓,是再寻常不过的花的线条。那片灰蒙的暗影,犹如素描中用铅笔一层一层扫上去的尘,越描越深,仿若无骨的鬼魅,随时将被黑夜吞噬于天地之间。我没有给她加水,目的是想知道干渴开裂后的鲜红花瓣是否会释放其中暗自汹涌的血,排山倒海,姽婳人间。我终究没有得出自己为何为之倾倒的答案。我决定离开。


他没有回来,自清晨掩门而去后便失去踪影。从窗缝溢入昏暗房间的光线里可见细密的尘,纷飞乱舞。三十七度角的凛冽,是残阳的余晖。屋里浊重的空气混沌地让我无法呼吸。我的时间所剩无几,花瓣失去眩目的润泽,叶亦开始枯萎。我已不再美丽。


次日,房间里飘落了几片如泪的失色花瓣,屋外的雪地里躺着一朵哭泣的残玫。


我现在是一朵普通的玫瑰。

我遗失了两天的爱人。

IH Homework

Posted on 2007-05-22   |   In Uncategorized   |  

  IH的作业,写到我抓狂。


Class: 307

Name: Zhang Yang Fan 33

Date: 22-5-07


Practice Question:

“The conflict in South Thailand can be resolved.”

How far do the sources support the above statement? Explain your answer.


The conflict in South Thailand is that the Muslims in Thailand’s three southernmost provinces claim that the Thai government discriminates against them so that they seek the independence and separation of their land by using violence and the government responded with force, declaring martial law in the region.

Three of the sources do show that the conflict in South Thailand cannot be resolved since both of the separatists and the Thai Government prefer to use military force to solve the problem.

The sources show that and there may be a third party involved in the conflict. Source A is a photo from the Thai government showing Islamic separatists in a camp in Malaysia. From the picture, we can see the people are all young males and their facial expressions are quite serious. Thus we may guess that the separatists are training their new army for fighting against the Thai government and trying to get more people to join them at the same time. Since the camp is held in Malaysia, it may be possible that the Malaysia government supports the separatists’ plan. This makes the conflict to be more complicated and difficult to resolve. Because the photo is from the Thai government, it is obvious that Thai government is aware of this fact that a third party is involved in this conflict. Compared to source C, the sentences “Thais always love and protect their motherland. We will not let anyone steal any part from us” clearly show the statement of Thai government which is protecting the Thai motherland and fight against the separation which suggested by the Muslims and it may be a hint that the Thai government is not satisfied with the action of Malaysia.

In addition, according to source B, people will be with the government if Thai government gets stronger and thus the conflict will be possibly resolved since the government then obtains the trust of the generation. Improving “Military forces” and “a psychological campaign” can make the government become more powerful. The sentence “The local people in the affected areas have dismissed any quick fix solution” shows the difficulty of resolving the conflict. The warning raised by the Muslim community towards the government also shows the savageness of the separatists. The idea of gaining people’s trust for the government is also reinforced by source E. The Prime Minister of Thailand, Mr. Thaksin, said the government would “go on offensive” and use soldiers to “search and arrest”. As the government has failed many times, they are frustrated about this and have made up their mind to put more effort and even use military force to defeat the “bandits”. The word “bandits” and the phrase “kill our people” show that Mr. Thaksin even does not view the separatists who are Muslims live in South Thailand as citizens in Thailand. It may be an example of discrimination. Hence the conflict cannot be resolved since continuous riots and military attacks seem not to be avoided.

On the other hand, some sources do show that the conflict in South Thailand can be resolved since the Thailand government has paid a lot of attention to the conflict.

The government has faith and sincerity to resolve the conflict. Form Source C, Mr. Thaksin said the “southern situation would improve soon.” The folding paper birds program and the words wrote on the birds show “the nation’s concerns for southern people”. Evidence of government’s eagerness of peace is also present. As the source also points out that Mr. Thaksin was interested in the idea that “people from different cultures live happily and peacefully together”, this may be a hint that the government will do something to improve Muslims’ living situation in South Thailand and thus resolve the conflict.

Moreover, the comments in source D give us an idea that the people in South Thailand’s wills are to live peacefully and stop fighting as it states “we should stop killing one another because it is everyone’s loss”. However, the comments cannot represent the generation’s views as they are from the minority and both of the speakers are mothers who lost their sons in the conflict. Other people may not have the same thoughts as them.

A point to note is that source C being an excerpt from a news report in the Bangkok Post may have an axe to grind. The sources may try to convince the general public of Thailand of the hypocrisy of the government. By portraying the sympathy and sense of the government towards the people living in South Thailand, it is hoped that the people would be aware of the kindness and clear-sightedness of the government and question the separation of the Muslims. The proposal about the model village may be more in form than in kind, and largely symbolic in nature. The folding paper birds program though reflects the sentiments of certain people such as students and government officials at that point of time, it may not be entirely reliable in its portrayal due to the motivation of the source.

Looking at al the sources, I believe that they largely point to the fact that the conflict in South Thailand cannot be resolved.

Although source C and D do provide evidence to support the alternative view, they may not be strong enough. For example, source C states that Mr. Thaksin “pleaded for public patience”. This clearly shows that to completely resolve the conflict needs a long time and since “the picture” had just “become clearer”, the government may have not come out with a proper solution at the moment and that in reality is impossible to resolve the conflict in a short time. Furthermore, the minority’s view in source D is not a piece of strong evidence.

Thus, as both of the separatists and the Thai Government prefer to use military force to achieve their own ambitions and there may be a third party involved, it can be seen that the conflict in South Thailand cannot be resolved peacefully in a short time.

博客比赛的作文

Posted on 2007-05-20   |   In Uncategorized   |  

      爱是永无止息

不知为什么,突然想写爱情。

小时候受电视剧与童话的影响,认为爱情就是两个人互相表白便可以相守一生一世,于是便期待某一天也能遇到自己的白马王子。等到大一点的时候呢,就学会了分辨美与丑,于是暗自决定自己日后的白马王子一定要又高又帅。再后来呢,我就渐渐明白爱情并没有那么简单,人如此善变,谁知两个人在一起是否会日久生厌,于是便决定爱情一定要有山盟海誓为证才可安心。而现在呢,随着时间流逝自己的社会阅历逐渐增多,忽然发现爱情其实很简单,只要两个人性情相合,互相做伴便可,连表白都可省去,更勿论誓言,变质的爱情岂是誓言可挽救的?合即相守,不合即散。

有时候也会为世事的现实无情而略感憾然。时代节奏变快,快餐爱情在年轻人间盛行。常常听人们戏说某人换男友或女友比换衣服还快,实让人无可奈何,游戏人间么?还是拿青春开玩笑?结果无人知晓。聚散离合,人前人后,爱情主宰命运,还是命运主宰爱情?

金钱利益也是污染爱情的魔掌。人本贪婪,爱财无过。若女子一开始便以金钱作为衡量爱情价值的标准,那也应同时准备好对方以贪求美貌或同样的功利心态为目的而交往。说起来也令人心凉,爱情何时成了一项以秤称量的交易了?

父母结婚恰好二十周年,两人吵吵闹闹也相守过了半辈子。互相见证彼此成熟的历程,至为人父母,至教育孩子,互相扶持着在一个陌生的城市扎下自己的根,不离不弃,是彼此至亲的人。这样长久的感情,没有誓言,没有天天夜夜的甜言蜜语,但我坚信这确是深厚之至的。有时听妈妈讲起他们刚结婚时的趣事,一间陋房,家具不多,凑合着便是一个家。爸爸年轻,尚不懂得何谓责任,婚前婚后一个样,照样与部队战友喝酒打牌,没日没夜。妈妈呢,身为女人,天性会治家,于是便约束起爸爸无规律的生活。爸爸十八岁离家当兵,早已忘记被管教的滋味,突然有个女人走进自己的生活,还没反应过来什么事呢,便有了令人心烦的数落,自然加以抵抗。战火就这么爆发,吵架是家常便饭,有时更是大打出手。也不知妈妈是不是讲夸张了,我总觉得他们那时候没有一点夫妻间的恩爱与甜蜜。可是风风雨雨也是这样过来了,二十年,锅碗瓢盆,油盐酱醋,爱情是在心里的。那日母亲整理旧相片,翻出发黄的老照,是二十岁的爸爸半卷裤脚站在海边的剪影,对着镜头笑得无比阳光。相片表面有些凹凸不平,似乎背面有字,母亲便将它反过来,上面是爸爸铿锵有力的字迹“海有多深,情有多深”。后来这事被我与妈妈当作笑料取笑了爸爸好久,原来木讷的他也会浪漫,爸爸每次都脸红的笑笑,也不言语。弹指便是二十年。

如此便有了自己的爱情观。爱情不是一时冲动的艳羡,也不是花前月下的山盟海誓,而是对对方的责任,是彼此心里的共鸣。两个人相爱却不一定要分秒相守,不要束缚,不要占有,各自是独立的个体,给彼此留有足够的自由,心灵上却无限靠近,有共同的志趣。很平淡,很熟悉,就像他的气味是自己身上的气味,不需要表白,没有任何怀疑,累的时候知道彼此是家,是很安全很踏实的感觉。

只是爱情对现在的我来说太早了。前段时间华文课要求写小小说,我写了个爱情故事。妈妈便说:“十六岁的小孩子会懂爱情,笑话。”其实不无道理,未成熟的孩子,太稚嫩的肩上担不起责任。友人说,这个年龄的恋爱都只是游戏。只是很多人仍深陷其中不能自拔罢了。

一个我很喜欢的作家说,爱是恒久忍耐,爱是恩慈,爱是永无止息。

End of Term Two

Posted on 2007-05-19   |   In Uncategorized   |  

第二学期结束啦!!还有一个礼拜的选修课,然后是双文化营,完了就可以回家了。不过假期一堆功课,不爽。昨晚formal dinner, 照了张很有朦胧美的相片,超有成就感。左起璐,琳,我。

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