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Posted on 2009-10-06   |   In Uncategorized   |  
  败类二字是对我现下生活状态的最好写照。

  整个人放纵无度,无所事事。把一条一条的复习计划工工整整地列好,然后将那张密密麻麻的to do list束之高阁,转眼就去颓废。

  跟吴桐发短信说:我这种人应该直接拖出去毙了。

  我是说真的。


  我完了。我发现我自己开始厌世。对什么都提不起兴趣。觉得生活也就不过如此,该看的都看过了,没看过的也无所谓了,一切都意义不大。人与人之间总是疏离,再热切的感情也只是一时的,暂时性的,转瞬即逝。仍然会抱着《二三事》读到深夜泪流满面,然后在凌晨无故转醒,心里悸恸,不记得曾经想念过的人的脸。

  也开始厌弃旧物。看着书架上那堆整整齐齐新的旧的书,还有半满的衣柜,心生烦厌。想全部扔掉。我恨不得只剩下一个空壳就好。

  我是一个恶人。自始至终我最爱的都是自己。对人和善不过是因为不放感情。这样一个混蛋。

  想念ISSYP的朋友们的有力的拥抱,紧紧地紧紧地用双臂将彼此圈紧,仿佛再也不能相见一般。也确实如此。天南地北相逢,然后在星空暗夜下互相取暖,清晨拥抱道别。See you later. 那是多么善意的微笑着的谎言。每一个人都这么说着,对那些也许一辈子都真的不会再相见的人。

  其实也只不过是想念那种漂泊的感觉,萍水相逢,何必天长地久。

  如果好多好多年,都不会安定下来,不会跟自己最在乎的亲人父母在一起,我不知道,现在的努力,到底还有什么意义。

  我累了,那么想去的北美,不也就是一个吃喝拉撒的地方而已么。有什么那么了不起的。

国庆快乐!

Posted on 2009-10-01   |   In Uncategorized   |  


it almost kills me...

Posted on 2009-09-30   |   In Uncategorized   |  
“Blogging has great appeal to people but little value to society.” Do you agree?

In the age of new media, blogging, being one of the most popular digital interactive platforms, is playing an increasingly important role in everyone’s life. Thanks to its user-friendly panel, blogging has successfully inspired independent creation and distribution of material. The two-way and dynamic interaction between authors and audience encourages active participation in contributing to the progress of our society. Through the medium of blogging, ordinary people are taking their first steps towards active citizenry. They are heading towards a more matured and democratic society.

Blogging attracts people by allowing them to become citizen journalists who practice self-publishing and self-supporting at a low cost. In the mainstream media, only those who are qualified as professional journalists have the opportunity to write to a large audience. Ordinary citizens without high language proficiency and outstanding writing portfolio may not have their wishes of conveying their personal views to the public fulfilled. The traditional media which intends to involve the widest range of audience thus remains as a one-way information distributing channel that only accepts input from the minority. Nonetheless, the developing blogsphere brings the majority comfort by providing them with a user-friendly publishing stage that has a worldwide pool of open-minded and active readers awaiting. It costs nothing more than a computer and an agile brain to be a citizen journalist who can talk to the public in words, pictures, audios, and even video clips. No wonder Technorati tracks 50,000 new blog posts an hour. The surging pace of blog posting and the fast growth of blogger population evidently show people’s great interests towards blogging.

The conservatists are often skeptical about the value brought by blogging to society. In the absence of editors for blogs, their concerns over the accuracy and justification of content on blogs are understandable. Although many people are attracted by blogging, they will more likely turn to the mainstream media for facts, with the knowledge that professional journalists have access to a more well-laid network and a wider pool of resources which can be utilized to report the truth. Indeed, the newly booming blogging which runs on individual basis may be incompetent in providing facts in comparison to the established mainstream media.

However, we need to understand that the function of blogging is different from that of the mainstream media. While the traditional media targets at informing and educating the masses on the news, blogging focuses more on sharing and exchanging opinions as readers are free to comment on the blog posts and authors can reply accordingly. Closer relationships among citizens with shared concerns or interests are thus cultivated. Through the increasing interaction, they gain more understanding of others who have different backgrounds and contribute to creating a more harmonious society. In political blogging which generates discussions over political issues, this interaction marks citizens’ first steps toward a more democratic society as they acquire more engaged and active citizenry. The Singapore government acknowledges this two-way engagement and participation online and thus puts forward REACH (Reaching Everyone for Active Citizenry @ Home) which includes blogging as one of the main services in its official web site.

In addition, blogging amplifies an individual’s voice by empowering him to disseminate information speedily and economically and even appeal for action. The value of this empowerment is very precious to society when disaster strikes. Take the Sichuan earthquake for example. The local residents who had access to the Internet asked around for specific life supplies via blogs, online forums and instant messaging. The details of items needed urgently, the locations of the victims who needed those resources were all clearly listed. Netizens from other parts of China thus mobilized to raise funds and to show support for the victims. Because the large number of local residents were more clear about the real needs of the victims, they were doing a more efficient job than the limited number of professional journalists who were either located in the region or sent for the first hand news. More lives were saved and sufferings were reduced as aid arrived at the right place in time, thanks to the fresh and accurate information. Blogging also passed the sense of patriotism and unity which the Chinese developed after the Sichuan earthquake. The value of blogging is indeed eminent in this rising country which has the world’s largest number of Internet users now.

Blogging’s appeal to people is growing with the blogger population worldwide. Its two-way interactive nature accelerates people’s progress to a democratic society. Each individual member of society can voice louder with the help of blogging and this is very helpful in aiding the victims when a disaster happens. The developing blogsphere should not be viewed as a replacement of the traditional media in the future. Rather, it is an unprecedented interactive platform which encourages quality thinking and reasoning, and assists people in the arduous journey of finding the truth in society.

默陌

Posted on 2009-09-26   |   In Uncategorized   |  



2009年9月26日的傍晚,太阳在手机200万像素镜头下的姿态。天色依然明朗。拍完这张照片,我把手机放回兜里。下一秒,就闭着眼睛张开双手顺着这个下坡冲了下去。

  看完《英国病人》,心里实在是纠郁地慌,想找人说话,却不知道要找谁。满手机的电话号码找不到一个可以毫无顾忌打过去的。我也有今天。
  穿
上鞋袜就出门了。憋得不得不去透气。借了思勤的shuffle,自己的Ipod里全是chopin 的
nocturnes,跑步听,太不合时宜了。不知道里面有什么歌,于是就无所预期地邂逅那些或熟悉或陌生的旋律,一塞上耳机就听到中岛美嘉在《雪之华》里
飙的高音,一个人在急速朝一楼下降的密封金属盒子里笑意盎然。后来居然还听到《穷开心》,那时正在朝着一个很陡的上坡缓跑,一个人摇头晃脑就乐不思蜀了。
  第二次在这个住宅区里四处乱逛。上次是九月假期,连着几个清晨借健身房卡上跑步机流汗,嫌着麻烦,干脆就把健身房搬到室外了。武吉知马,这片新加坡地价最高的住宅区,其实真是挺美的。感觉像是将加拿大的郊野别墅密集地摆在一起,而且风格更多样化,更为奢华。

 我只是散心,没有出行的目的,只记个大概的方向,专门拐入未曾造访过的小巷,时跑时行,东张西望。精致的雕花大门,或洁白木质栅栏,修剪齐整的草坪,秋
千,狗,私家泳池,落地大窗,日式回廊,灯饰,保安,名车。我像看建筑杂志一样观赏着这些房子,冲着那些栅栏后面摇着尾巴大吠的金色大犬微笑。

 没有车的时候,喜欢大刺刺肆无忌惮地走在马路中间,就像整条路都属于我一样。上坡的时候略觉疲惫,随意地就缓下来慢慢行走,而到下坡时,又开始撒丫子借
着重力加速向下冲,散开头发,快乐得像疯子。时不时抬头,看到成群的麻雀飞过,也许有上百只,叽叽喳喳,衬着微暗的蓝天,有时会邂逅满树繁花。
  一路抬头挺胸,我不低头。回到宿舍的时候,已是暮色四合,霞光漫天。

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Posted on 2009-09-26   |   In Uncategorized   |  
刚刚看完. 心里非常非常难过。
沉沦在Ralph Fiennes 的眼神里。
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